Major Disappointment

A piece of paper...
2 pieces of news...
A huge disappointment...
Did not expect that to happen...
I am not hardworking enough???
I am not good enough???
Am I too soft???
Or am I good to bully???
What should I do???
Look elsewhere???
Or stay and strive???
Why? Why did I land in such a state???

I am really feeling very unstable now...
Felt no sense of security and unwanted...
To stay or to go...this qns has been accompanying me to sleep these few days...